Life is cycles, circles. For me this translates into high and low, manic and depressed, social and hermit. The last two weeks have been full of love and debauchery -- constant social, constant play. And late Saturday, early Sunday, I crashed -- sometime around high tide and a high orange moon over red hook. I woke one day, Sunday, unable to move. Unable to make peace with the too many plans I've made. Somehow lost. Melancholy. Alone.

I love alone.

I've been reading some old klever missives... The ones I wrote before I used capital letters. The ones I wrote when I still thought I'd be a mercenary rebel in the mountains of Mexico. Preachy, naive, and most importantly honest. Sunday alone found me staring at piles of records that needed to get off the floor, and envelopes that needed to be opened with bills that needed to be paid, and clothes that needed to find their way out of the laundry bag so the filth on the floor could move in. Hair in snarls and a sore throat, a befitting state for weeks of insanity.

And so, now, Tuesday, I think I've settled... on calm, on peace, on my guitar. And I've discovered some things I like more than DJing -- like actually just sitting in my room and listening to music, writing my own, and the latest, greatest craze, VJing. CJ let me use his set-up last Friday at the Bunker (what a *great* party and after hours!). Anyway, I realized I LOVE MIXING VIDEO. It helps that Chris had a healthy stock of amazing work he's custom built -- all I had to do was figure out what the knobs on the controller did and swoosh them at the right times. So fun. So I'm going to practice and it's going to be hot hot hot like a New York June.

Last night some friends gathered at the Times Square Howard Johnson's (Restaurant) -- it's closing in two weeks and is one of the last short buildings with honest intention -- it opened in march 1959 and there are people who have worked there for 35 years. Such a treat. Go if you get the chance.

There's a lot coming down the pipe this month (see below), or down the slide - one of those twisty, spiral slides that never are as fun as they look unless you can find a cardboard box. So go find a box and enjoy summer.

Love and a shark fin bike helmet.





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